Produce (Short) Movies

I felt a bit weird posting poetry, but that’s what I’ve been up to

lately. Yeah… having a blog is fun. And I can update really easily.

Thank you for reading. I think I will have some more news in a couple

weeks, but I don’t want to mention anything now because I don’t really

like talking about projects that are not complete. There is a theory

about manifestation that one must keep the progress made toward the

goal secret in order to maintain the focus of the energy. If one talks

about it too early, it’s like letting helium out of a balloon… the

energy will release and the goal will not be attained. Then you have

to wait a bit and blow the damn balloon up again. Generate new energy.

I write about this now because this issue has recently come up several

times for me, reminding me to keep quiet. One instance had to do with

me contacting someone about something, but then I told an associate and

he told, like, EVERYONE, and there goes all the energy I manifested

toward the goal. The balloon sank. I mean, he didn’t know that’s how

I manifest things. I can’t even explain it without it sounding highly

superstitious. But that’s the way things happen with me. Another

instance was this past week when I was half way to a goal, but nothing

was secure. I told someone because I was so excited and I thought I

had it in the bag and then the entire thing sort of just evaporated.

Poof. It was weird.

I could take the spiritually balanced approach to all this and say, “If

it didn’t happen, then it wasn’t meant to be.” But why does it only

“not happen” when I start talking? It’s all way too synchronous (in a

not good way).

This is from Julia Cameron’s book Supplies:

EVADE THE RADAR

“This involves the practice of the technique I call Zip the Lip, and it

means keep a low profile and don’t brag until you are sitting around

the campfire AFTER. Don’t race out and buy a fancy new Hummer. Don’t

trade up on the house. Don’t throw your comfortable clothes away so

you’re stuck with Armanis a size too small from your Toast and Boast

lunches.

Remember: The first rule of magic is containment. Work on the work,

not the image. If you are successful, your cheap shabby offices will

mean you are modest. Do not, repeat, do not reach into the Goody Jar

and run up an account on the company jet chit. You don’t want to show

up on the Jealous Schmucks Radar Screen or, for that matter, on the New

and Fleeceable Radar Screen. Pet your dog or your wife or your kid’s

head and practice your Acceptance Speech only in a cold shower.

I’ve been spending more time writing and playing guitar, so here’s a poem. It’s always scary for me to have others read freshly scribbled words because the emotions behind them are still so vulnerable. Still, it’s such great fun to write and, hopefully, for others to read. And poetry is great because it’s so nebulous. No one usually has a clue as to what I’m talking about. Or they personalize it for their own life. That’s cool with me because art is connecting two seemingly unrelated things.

“I’m Fine”

You know I lie

“I’m Fine. I’m Fine”

I could tell you the truth but I doubt you have the time.

Are you ready to hear my history? My lifeline?

It’s what lead me here

Shaking in fear

But confident that all will come clear

I may leave you confused

But my behavior is a ruse

To protect the rawness of my insides

See, I’ve got a thing for you

A thing or two

A secret which I hide

But you sense what this is about

In my head I’m too loud when I shout

And you listen closely for a hint about my chatter

Not that it’d matter

You’ve, no doubt, been tempted with yummier platters

For I’m a bit grizzly and a bit fatter

But allow me to speak my words

Send you images all lucious and good

I will fulfill them if you like

But there’s no pressure. No expectation. No hype.

Because I’m just here for the ride

Glad I’m alive

Glad I’m occasionally by your side

(Copyright 2004 Leslie Lello)

(This is the August 2004 post from the news page at www.leslielello.com. From now on, the news will be posted here at www.leslielello.blogspot.com)

August has been busy. I got the headshots done, but I think I’m going to reshoot. Still deciding. In the meantime, Exercise Class has resumed, so that’s feeding the fix, but not as much as I’d like. I decided to sign up with Sage-LA again. Sage-LA is a submissions service I used a year ago. I was going out a lot when I was submitting through her. It was a pleasure to be auditioning so much. So I signed up again. While I’m reluctant to pay someone for something I could do myself, I find the task of doing all that mailing tedious, so why should I get caught up in that? It’s worth the money. And between postage, envelopes and buying BSW, Hollywood Reporter & Variety each week, think I break even.

There have been a few changes to the website. I have changed the picture on the homepage. This is not my new headshot, but it’s a more accurate picture of what I look like right now. I’m having trouble with putting the shots I took this month on the web. They will be up there eventually.

I will probably be redo-ing the entire website (again) in a few months, but I recently switched from PC to Mac, and my pagebuilding software isn’t compatible. I’ve been plugging in my old and dysfunctional PC to write each news update, and this is becoming a bit tiresome. Soooo…. I’ve decided to use a blog instead of this webpage. The address is www.leslielello.blogspot.com. I don’t know how often I’ll post. It’s all sort of new to me. But for now, it seems like the right solution.